Suddenly, I feel such a huge burden on my shoulder.
I am so tired and vexed.
Why can't life be simple?
Why can't I be simple?
Why can't everyone be simple?

Plagued with illness again.
I am sick once again.
My body is getting weaker and weaker.
I don't even know when I will be gone.
Sometimes, life is just so unpredictable.
You never know what will happen next.
Trying to find my way out, but i meet dangers and traps.
Sigh. Living in this world is never easy.

Sigh. Seeing people leaving this world, the feeling is undesirable.
Today, I am typing a passage of sadness, depression and death.
Dark and Gloomy.. Hope you don't mind.

Like one of my friend said , ' Life Sucks.'
I agree with that. Life truly sucks when things start to turn out nasty.

I guess, nothing lasts forever in this world.
Including love and friendships.

The flame of love will fade
And loyalty for friendship will be lost.
Friends around me are all like hypocrites to me.
I know who is good and who is bad.
I can see. I am not blind like some people out there.

Who will love each other till death do them apart?
I guess not. Not in our era.
People divorce after their failure of marriage.
People break up due to failure of relationships.
People cheating on each other, having affairs, dirtied love.
Heart aches and tears fill your empty heart.

Since when one will be there for another one?
I am such a fool to believe in that.
All humans care for themselves.
There are only tearing of hearts and throats.
This is reality.

It hurts you when you realise that no one is there to lend a shoulder.
Just when you need one.
I have seen it before and i can tell you, the feeling sucks.

I don't wish to reduce my trust, faith and passion in anything esp. love and friendships.
But various undesirable events happened, cause me to suspect everyone around me.

At the end of the day, who is true to me?
Frankly speaking, I don't even know.

I guess, nobody knows....

Gimme Something To Believe In As I Don't Believe In You Anymore.

Happy Mothers' Day To All Mothers Out There!!
Enjoy As This Is The Only Day When You Can Enjoy And Stop Working Like A Slave For The Family.

I Love You Mum!

Smell of angels, Smell of spirits and smell of demons linger in my fingers.

Insatiable.

Decided to blog as I have stopped for so long. Not very long but my blog is keeping spider webs.

Recently, I am crazy about Evanescence. Love their songs. Haha.. More into rock now, thanks to Ad's influence.

You Love To Hate Me, Don't You Honey. I'm Your Sacrifice.

Never Wasn't And Never WIll Be. You Never Know How You Betray Me. Somehow You Got Everybody Fooled.

All those that are underlined are the lyrics of various songs I am listening while I am blogging.

As I find them meaningful.

Well, ever since an incident, I realise, there are all sorts of people in the world. Especially those who are looking down on other people. How I wish I can exterminate them all. As I believe every single thing in this world plays a huge part. Never underestimate or overlook them. That's why God create every single thing you have seen in this world. Being rich brings you nowhere. As money couldn't buy back the loved ones you have lost, your health, the love and the passion in your life.

You know it. Yet you ignore it. It piss me off. You deserve no respect and compassion from me. As you didn't give it to me at all. Hypocrisy is in your dictionary.

Just remember this, what goes around comes around. Watch your back as you will never know what will happen next.

Don't expect a return when you give. As the world is unfair. Don't whine and cry when you don't get it. Work for it instead.

I have sympathy and compassion for every living being. It's all about whether you deserve it or not.

I can be kind. I can be nice. I can be sweet. I can be friendly. I can be gentle. I can be sensitive. I can be a good friend.

But...

I can be nasty. I can be unkind. I can be evil. I can be unfriendly. I can be rough. I can be rude. I can be insensitive. I can be a baddie.

It's up to you and me.

That's a human's natural reaction. Don't blame me.

I just want to tell this to someone which I dislike.
You have helped me, which is a undeniable fact.
You have offended me, which is also a undeniable fact.
Whatever I have said up there, are all undeniable facts.

You have mistakes too. Just like me.
Learn.

Joreen.