Everything seems to be unreal to me now. I feel so confused, tired and i can't seem to differentiate what is right and wrong.
I.E. Everything is so screwed up.
My bro came to me again. I was shocked and surprised, thinking that I've not seen him for so long. As usual, he smacked my head and hugged me. But I never expect to see him again.
He is not really my bro. I know him thru' ad. We got along well and he takes care of me like his baby sister.. (he doesn't have a sister, i suppose)
He came to me cos I was having a serious fight with ad, like I just hit the bottle neck for my relationship. I feel so tired, and I want to run away. But I know I couldn't run away.. Ad needs me and no matter how far I run, it still comes to me.
Heh.. but everything went smooth after he left. I calmed down and so was Ad.
The reason for me fighting with Ad is simple yet ridiculous.. my dental fee. It costs about $246, cos I did cavity dressing and deep scaling. so I was very mentally prepared for the fee. But Ad was not prepared (FYI- I paid the fee myself). So he started to give me the i-so-concerned-yet-i-am-so-pissed-about-the-fee look. no doubt, i got pissed to me, so we kept quite throughout our journey.
we got so heated up after we reached Ad's house. The fight lasted for approxmately 1 hour.. Thanks to Jeff (my bro), we stopped and due to crying too much, I fell asleep.
So, I would like to dedicate 'Never gonna give you up' by Rick Astley to Ad. :)
Sorry for what I had said and done. I love you. I'll never hurt you anymore.
Love,
Joreen
Never gonna give you up, never let you down