Sorry. I have to say this is gonna be a sad entry.
Because these few days' happenings have caused me a huge breakdown.
I am so tired. Not physically but emotionally.

I keep reminiscing the days we had when we are just together.
Its still fresh, new and young.
We has lots of fun and little argument.
I know.
'Honeymoon' period is just the first few months.
But, for our case, it lasted for half a year.
I was baked in happiness and hoping to see you everyday.
And I thought you are the one for me.

Now, we are on the rocky side.
We fight or argue.
Going out with you seems to be tiring.
Afraid to hurt you with my words or actions.
As I'll feel guilty.

Now I know, nothing lasts forever in this world.
So is love.

Sigh. I think I cant find back what we used to have.

I still love you. But, if you realise..
We're starting to drift apart.

Adrian, I know you'll feel terrible after reading this.
But I have to say it.

The problem is, Do you still love me?

What is love by the way?
Love is supposed to bring joy and happiness into my life.
But it is not.

I dont want to find fault with you.
I dont want to argue with you.
But if you want to leave me, I'll understand.
Because when we are together, you talk lesser.
Something seems to be on your mind.
All the time.

I know I'm not as good as the girls outside.
They are cuter, gentler, nicer and more feminine.
I wish I'm like them.
But I'm not good enough.
Not good enough for anyone.

I see that coming, Adrian.
Its time we talk.
Or else, we are over.
Lemme assure you that.

Jo