You know, you can never get the best of two worlds.
And you will always find yourself torn apart between humanity and decisions.
No decision is kind to humans and their feelings.

Right now, I'm experiencing the symptoms of 'throwing my resignation letter'.
It includes feeling vexed, lost, upset and even confused.
Sigh. I really don't know what to do.
On one hand, my beloved boss just confirmed me.
On the other hand, I want to get a better paying job.
Worst of all, the devil and angel are actually giving me different opinions.
Can someone advise me?
I have already sent out my resume (which is no turning back)
But I don't know when or how should I throw my letter.
I mean, my boss just confirmed me and there i go, saying bye bye after a month.

I spent a few moment to evaluate whether I should stay or go.
And my verdict is that this job really doesn't suit me.
But something is just pulling me back.
And I can't find words to express it.

Moreover, I am going to study for my diploma next year.
And I need to save up at least 2000 bucks for it.
With my pay now, I think I've gotten myself a long way to go.
And the jobs which I'm applying for now offers higher pays.
Damn. I'm crossing my fingers that they will pick me.
Or else, I can't study for my course.

Sometimes I wonder, what would my life be if I didn't tear away the ITE letter?
I guess I will be studying my diploma course now.
Well, I know, there is no turning back now.
What done has been done.
But a blessing in disguise, I had knowledge which other adolescents don't get to have.
Maybe everything has its own advantages and disadvantages.
Its just about how we look at them.

P.S: I have to thank William and Joan for helping me to look for job opportunies. You guys are great. Love you guys. :)

Jo