Someone told me to blog as she has not seen my new blog entries for quite a while. So, I decided to blog again. But behold, I am not blogging about happy news but my feelings right now - sucks.

Today is someone's birthday... wanted to make him happy by bringing him to a movie tonight - The Dark Knight. But then all i got was a grumpy voice over at the other side.... I think I am not being appreciated.. cos all i want to do is to let him have something he is hoping for to be real..

sigh.. because of me, he cancelled the dinner with his family... that makes me look bad and i feel fucking guilty. now he is telling me that today is not his day.. but i told him ' it is actually. but you chose to give up the plan of spending time with your family.' he didn't reply my sms. i guess he is going to say... i didn't recieve your sms. something's wrong with my phone. i just take it whatever comes to me.

so much for his birthday. so much for my ideas of making him happy and celebrating his bday. all are just crap and bullshit. what a fucked up day today.

Joreen
what you wish for... it doesn't always happen.. in fact, it doesn't happen at all!