It has been 2 weeks since I last blog.
Have been quite busy with my work.
So, everytime, after work, I'll head home and sleep.
Or go out with mates and tire myself out.

I just started on my new job.
It is quite stressful and tiring.
I have to keep working as there are lots of phone calls and orders to process.
I just started a week and I felt burnt.
I cant imagine when I work longer.
But I like Fridays. Less stressful. Less work. Relaxed. More fun.

But tomorrow there is a stupid lunch held by the company.
I am being forced to go which I dont feel like going.
Bought a gift(being forced to) which I didnt hit the minimum.
Who cares anyway? I'm new. Why should I bother to buy such a expensive one.
But I have no idea what to wear.
Waste my good afternoon for this meaningless event.

To what I see myself at times, I feel that I cant trust someone completely.
Even though I say I trust people esp. my friends.
I guess too many events which happen infront of my eyes maybe depleting my trust for humans.
I prefer to see actions than words.
This, I have been telling Ad many times.
But I am telling to everybody now.
All of a sudden, I got emo.
It could be the night and the music. I am alone. Ad is asleep.
So all my thoughts and emo came out to manifest.
Ah..... the feeling is unbearable and what can I do.

I remember a friend of mine told me.
Why did you like to blog so much?
Why dont you spend your time on your work and carve your own path?

Well, even if you are the richest in the world.
Without emo, love, words, thinkings and humanity, you are not considered as 'rich'.
Gradually, you will learn how to forget how to express yourself.
I feel that there should be a balance in life.
A balance which can keep you off the edge and breakdown.


Replying to Ad's post : Storm The Gates Of Heaven.

Why dont we storm the GATES OF HELL.
Lets pick up our blades and tear down Hell.
Kill Satan and his evil followers.
Bring peace and tranquility to this world.
*And I am not talking about Hellgate:London*

The gods are not cruel. There is a balance in life.
When gods give you something, they take away something from you.
It is an equal trade which we learn in the Jap anime - Fullmetal Alchemist.
If you dont sacrifice, you wont get anything.
Paying up the same value in order to get what you want.
Thats the balance. The balance to keep the people's minds from more evil and corruption.
If you wanna talk about cruelty, talk about humans.

Jo